I wanted to share this because I think at times we as women forget who God has called us to be.  It says we are to be reverent or respectful in our behavior, not gossips, and not excessive drinkers.  We are called as Christian women to teach what is good and encourage younger women to love their husbands and children, but the part here I want to focus on is being a worker at home.  Now this could mean a lot of things to different people.  For the longest, I thought it meant that I would work for a company outside of my home at home.

      I grew up with the mindset that if you are a woman you must have your own MONEY just in case that man leaves you! Not realizing that this was out of dysfunction and not faith.  I now understand that this thinking was showing my complete lack of trust in God’s provision.  I was trusting in my own. (See right here, forgetting that God is God) As we grow in our faith we will notice our way of thinking will change so that it looks like Jesus.  The Titus 2:3-5 passage is saying that if we as Christian Women don’t seek to uphold these things, God’s word has the chance of being slandered and that was the last thing I wanted.

     When my husband and I were dating one of the first things he said to me was “I don’t want my wife to work if she doesn’t want to” and at the time I was working 3 jobs! Yes, y’all I was hustling!  Guess what I said to him… I was like “Oh well I’m going to always work lol”! Chile dating me was a lot, y’all pray for him! We left the topic alone after that and never spoke of it again.  So fast forward to getting engaged and planning a wedding, now at the time I was working part-time and living with my parents.  I had sold my home and had more than enough money to live off of and my parents let me stay with them for free which was amazing! (SN: There is nothing wrong with living with your parents as a single, it proved so fruitful for us!!)

     Who knew there would be a worldwide shutdown when we got married? Not us! We thought we would be heading on our amazing honeymoon after our perfectly planned wedding! God was just laughing at a lot of our plans, wasn’t he?  Thankfully the part-time job I had was able to be remote, so I did that for a couple of months.  I knew it was never my passion, I just wanted some steady income if I’m honest. But after a lot of prayer, hubby and I agreed that I should take some time off for a season and figure out what I wanted to do. So I spent a lot of time pouring into my home and I realized I didn’t hate it shockingly enough.  I would try new recipes, learn new cleaning techniques, and tap into my creative side. Gosh, what a special season.

     Then that fateful day came… I was upstairs cleaning up and suddenly my back gave out, I screamed for my hubby in a whisper, and thank God he heard me, ran upstairs, and caught me!  He then took me to the emergency room and they gave me some medicine and told me to rest for a while.  A while turned into several months, almost a year!  Imagine being a newlywed, unemployed, and now not even able to do the one thing that you were doing, Homemaking! My amazing husband had to do everything because as it turns out I had a very large herniated disc and they were amazed that I could do anything at all.  It was a very low point in my life, to say the least.  My faith was being tested, and I had to believe what I said all the time “God is God and we are not, so we trust Him and we let Him do his thing”.

     I found myself very sad because while my husband was working full time he still had to take care of me.  But God in his faithfulness made sure that my husband was working remotely at a super flexible job and could take care of me. I am so thankful that God blessed me with him, y’all just don’t understand! I saw just how much he loved me when I couldn’t do anything for him in return.  He is truly my answered prayer!

     A season of not working turned into 3 years! Now in between that time, I was working odd jobs here and there, but nothing stuck.  I would apply to like 5 jobs per day and get nothing! A little bit about me, whenever I would apply for a job in the past I got it, so this was new to me.  I knew that if God hadn’t opened a door for me to work I wasn’t supposed to! So during those 3 years, I made homemaking my full-time job! I found joy in it because there was a season when I couldn’t even do that because of the pain in my body.  When I cook, clean, and do the laundry I give God praise because He gives me strength for the job!  Earlier when I said “Oh I’m going to always work” I guess I meant that, just not in the way I said it before.  HOMEMAKING IS WORK!

     I know there are people who don’t believe it is a real job especially if you don’t have children, but if you watch my blogs you will see that is definitely not the case.  When people would ask why be a homemaker,  you don’t have kids?  I would tell them that God has called me to be a homemaker even though I don’t have kids.  Well Kim, how do you know that God has called you to this… I know because I am here in this season right now without kids YET!  So all of that to say, homemaking chose me and I am so glad it did.  Being a homemaker has shown me the beauty in being a Titus 2 Woman and for that I praise God!